I figured when one was nesting that would mean that she would have a ton of energy too. Not true for me.
Yes I am looking around my home desiring to organize, sanatize, and CLEAN up every nick and cranny. But everytime I get moments into it I have to sit my big mama butt back down, breathless. I am trying to determine if this “nesting” desire stems just from my unorganized house OR the fact that baby bean is on it’s last stretch in my uterus. Either way the results are positive. Today I managed to sort through most of the kids clothes, keep only what was necessary, and put away the rest. All five of us are sharing one wardrobe, and one dresser. Clothes are begining to cramp up our lifestyle. So time to purge. Tomorrow I hope to do the same with mine and Michael’s clothing… we will see! I am also determined to sort through the kids toys, and put them up high out of little hands who like to dump their toys instead of play with them. I have come to the conclusion that their play needs to be a bit more controlled, otherwise I will NEVER escape the mess. Since the evidence of mouse families are on our floors, I want to have everything up and off of the floor. No more storing things under the bed, at least until the little monsters are dead. I have a ton of work ahead of me, especially since we have very limited places to put things.
I also picked out the babes “right after being born outfit”‘, and going home outfit. I am debating whether or not to pack it all into a bag, but it seems a bit early. My intuition thinks that she is going to come out earlier than her due date. But with these things one never knows for sure! I have been feeling alot of pressure, and stabs from downsouth. But when I googled my concern I found that it is normal, and doesn’t always warrant an early arrival. Bummer. I have been having braxton hicks contractions more often too, I actually like these BH. They are suppose to be getting my body ready for the big party. I am not too excited about the festa – but very excited about the present. It is funny, I have spent so much time being sick, that I kinda forgot why. Now that I am feeling much better, I am over the moon estatic that we are going to have another little Dugan Bambino around.
On Wednesday we are going to meet our doctor. I am both excited about this meeting and nervous. Even though this is my third baby. It kinda feels like my first. I don’t know what to expect, and from what I have heard of Brazil’s methods of doing things, they do things differently than the USA. Part of me just wants to have the baby at home ( not realistic), part of me wants to run back to the USA to deliver ( also not realistic), part of me just wants to have a c-section ( seems easier- but I have heard it’ is over all more painful- so again – hopefully NOT an option) , and part of me just wants to be able to accept Brazilian ways and go with the flow ( which is actually my ONLY option! I just have to suck it up!) But on Wednesday I will have a better idea of what to expect, what things can be negotiated, and what is just standard policy that I can’t avoid. I hope that she checks to see how I am doing too. I am really interested in knowing what position baby bean is in. Hopefully head down where she belongs! I also hope that I like this Dr. !
My oldest two are doing very well these days. Bella has seemed to snap out of her whining phase, just when Caleb decided to enter into it! Today we looked at a preschool we are thinking of putting them into 1/2 a day, twice a week. They need more exposure to the language, they need friends their ages, and they need something to do. These days they have been tearing the walls apart with boredom. Caleb has been a little curious monkey, into EVERYTHING, and I am close to tearing my hair out! For the most part Bella and Caleb are great friends. Just today, outside the school, I overheard this conversation:
Bella: We are going to go to this school Caleb. But Mama can only come with us for a little bit.
Caleb: That’s ok Bella. Everything is going to be fine. It’s going to be ok.
I love, love, love that Caleb is reasurring his Big sister. So so sweet.
Michael and I are still figuring things out here, and seem to be making more progress. We have to keep reminding ourselves to take it easy a bit, and be satisfied with where we are at right now. When I look back at all that has been done in the past 2 months, I am shocked that so much has been accomplished already! I just praise God that He brought us here. I love Brazil. I love knowing that this is where God wants us. I love being able to serve Him in this capacity. I am looking forward to the days, weeks, months, and years to come.
