It’s been a rough few weeks. Maybe that’s why my posts have lacked some really juicy content these days! I am too tired ( or busy) to sit down and share my heart with ya’ll.
There is also that fine line of HOW much I should share with readers. I’ve always wanted to be open and honest in my writings, and sometimes the truth just isn’t very attractive. Nor do I believe that letting it ALL hang out is wise.
That being said; here is a half brained attempt to write a little about the going ons of the Dugan 5!
Whoever said that adding a third baby is as easy as pie was LYING. That or their third baby was an exception to the rule! Ha- I would even venture to say that they didn’t even have kids at all!
Somedays I feel like I am drowning in all of the whining, crying, tantrums, complaints, requests, house chores, laundry, and basics of life. There is simply not enough hours in the day, or hands to help! Something always has to give, and that bothers me on SO many different levels. I often feel like I am losing my mind, my self control, and the little patience I have left!
How’s that for honest? There is no pretty way to spin it!
But we are coping. Really we are. Especially since Lilani is no longer screaming her head off at us.
What we thought was a bad case of colic turns out to be baby reflux. I always assumed reflux was just a little vomit and alot of laundry – nothing to worry about. Right?
Wrong. It actually is heartburn, and it is true to it’s name. It burns. It’s the reason why my baby has been crying for hours upon hours these days with no relief. Why she was having difficulty nursing. Why sometimes she would cough and gag for no apparent reason. Why her voice sounds hoarse and sore, and why none of us have been sleeping at night. I feel just awful for her. All this time, and we were clueless…sigh…I can’ t think about it too much…
We started her on medicine today, and we are already starting to see a small change. For the first time in weeks she has been happy after a feeding. I am amazed that today we have been able to put her down awake and content for small doses. I actually finished a meal in peace! My only distraction was her smiling and cooing beside me! The medicine won’t cure her reflux- only time will do that, but it seems to give her some comfort. I am thankful.
Please pray however that Michael and I will have wisdom, patience, and the energy to help her through this. I won’t lie – it is very hard to listen to high pitched crying for all day long. So far we both have kept our cool – but we don’t want to let our guard down. The kicker is that this medicine has a chance of actually inducing colic among other side effects. Please pray it won’t affect her. We are learning how to better care for her needs, she is just too precious! It’s hard to see her so uncomfortable, I can’t stand it!
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Caleb seems to be finding his own voice in the midst of all this chaos. Michael commented today that he seems to be such a tough guy, but really his toughness is masking how he is really feeling. I think he is right. He is still very sweet to Lili but we can tell he is feeling a bit left out with the way he behaves. Some of his antics have me beside myself with laughter! Poor guy! He just wants to be taken seriously. He is now out of diapers during the day! We are so proud of him! This week he has woken up in the morning dry twice! I love seeing him run around in his Mater underwear. Nothing is cuter! …except when he runs to me, wraps his chubby arms around my neck and says. ” I love you mama.” That is most definetly cuter!
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Bella has her moments, but for the most part she has turned into a little sweetheart. I love that she is old enough to have sensible conversations with. I love hearing what is going on in her mind and heart! I need to write down some of the things she says to us! So cute! If she isn’t beside me, you can find her playing with her dollhouse/polly’s or coloring princesses. I love watching her grow and learn. I regret that I don’t have enough time with her, because she is the one that needs less attention, she is the one that gets less. At night, when she is sleeping, I am sorely tempted to wake her up just so I can talk to her more.
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Parenting is so rewarding. But so overwhelming at times. I am so thankful for these three little lives that my heart is bursting with love, sometimes it is literally painful.
I have never been so vulnerable. So broken, and so willing to allow God to work in my life, and in the lives of my husband and children. I’ve also never been so serious about hiring a housekeeper so I can just enjoy them. Wouldn’t that be nice!
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It’s been a rough few weeks. Maybe that’s why my posts have lacked some really juicy content these days! I am too tired ( or busy) to sit down and share my heart with ya’ll.
There is also that fine line of HOW much I should share with readers. I’ve always wanted to be open and honest in my writings, and sometimes the truth just isn’t very attractive. Nor do I believe that letting it ALL hang out is wise.
That being said; here is a half brained attempt to write a little about the going ons of the Dugan 5!
Whoever said that adding a third baby is as easy as pie was LYING. That or their third baby was an exception to the rule! Ha- I would even venture to say that they didn’t even have kids at all!
Somedays I feel like I am drowning in all of the whining, crying, tantrums, complaints, requests, house chores, laundry, and basics of life. There is simply not enough hours in the day, or hands to help! Something always has to give, and that bothers me on SO many different levels. I often feel like I am losing my mind, my self control, and the little patience I have left!
How’s that for honest? There is no pretty way to spin it!
But we are coping. Really we are. Especially since Lilani is no longer screaming her head off at us.
What we thought was a bad case of colic turns out to be baby reflux. I always assumed reflux was just a little vomit and alot of laundry – nothing to worry about. Right?
Wrong. It actually is heartburn, and it is true to it’s name. It burns. It’s the reason why my baby has been crying for hours upon hours these days with no relief. Why she was having difficulty nursing. Why sometimes she would cough and gag for no apparent reason. Why her voice sounds hoarse and sore, and why none of us have been sleeping at night. I feel just awful for her. All this time, and we were clueless…sigh…I can’ t think about it too much…
We started her on medicine today, and we are already starting to see a small change. For the first time in weeks she has been happy after a feeding. I am amazed that today we have been able to put her down awake and content for small doses. I actually finished a meal in peace! My only distraction was her smiling and cooing beside me! The medicine won’t cure her reflux- only time will do that, but it seems to give her some comfort. I am thankful.
Please pray however that Michael and I will have wisdom, patience, and the energy to help her through this. I won’t lie – it is very hard to listen to high pitched crying for all day long. So far we both have kept our cool – but we don’t want to let our guard down. The kicker is that this medicine has a chance of actually inducing colic among other side effects. Please pray it won’t affect her. We are learning how to better care for her needs, she is just too precious! It’s hard to see her so uncomfortable, I can’t stand it!
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Caleb seems to be finding his own voice in the midst of all this chaos. Michael commented today that he seems to be such a tough guy, but really his toughness is masking how he is really feeling. I think he is right. He is still very sweet to Lili but we can tell he is feeling a bit left out with the way he behaves. Some of his antics have me beside myself with laughter! Poor guy! He just wants to be taken seriously. He is now out of diapers during the day! We are so proud of him! This week he has woken up in the morning dry twice! I love seeing him run around in his Mater underwear. Nothing is cuter! …except when he runs to me, wraps his chubby arms around my neck and says. ” I love you mama.” That is most definetly cuter!
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Bella has her moments, but for the most part she has turned into a little sweetheart. I love that she is old enough to have sensible conversations with. I love hearing what is going on in her mind and heart! I need to write down some of the things she says to us! So cute! If she isn’t beside me, you can find her playing with her dollhouse/polly’s or coloring princesses. I love watching her grow and learn. I regret that I don’t have enough time with her, because she is the one that needs less attention, she is the one that gets less. At night, when she is sleeping, I am sorely tempted to wake her up just so I can talk to her more.
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Parenting is so rewarding. But so overwhelming at times. I am so thankful for these three little lives that my heart is bursting with love, sometimes it is literally painful.
I have never been so vulnerable. So broken, and so willing to allow God to work in my life, and in the lives of my husband and children. I’ve also never been so serious about hiring a housekeeper so I can just enjoy them. Wouldn’t that be nice!
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I’m often tempted to wake Avery up after she falls asleep, just to snuggle or chat (I’ve never actually done it though). Ed thinks I’m crazy! I’m glad to hear I’m not the only crazy mama out there.:)
How did you discover this, Cari??
Two people close to us suggested Reflux after spending some time with Lili. Sure enough we looked into it and she had all the symptoms. The medicine we were given is working wonders. She is a totally different, happy baby. I am very thankful!