On the verge of tears. That would be a good way to describe myself today. I’m not a cryer. It takes ALOT to get me to the point of tears. Instead I tend to stuff it inside or just suck it up. Sure I complain a ton, THEN i suck it up, and move on. Why waste so much energy on something you can’t change?
Man I hate being such a black and white person.
I’m having a hard time sucking it up when it comes to my babies.
This lil seven week old has me on an emotional roller coaster. I’ve shed many tears on her bald little head in the middle of the night. Too many to count. She may be sleeping but I sit awake, praying for her, worrying about her, my heart breaking in two. I am just SO overwhelmed with love for her that I can’t handle it.
I am so thankful that tomorrow she has an appointment. Hopefully we can figure out something that will help her. She had a really really great day today, I am so thankful. She smiled, cooed, ate, and slept. Perfect.
My beautiful MIL distracted us this afternoon by taking us on a car drive in search of beautiful flowers. We had a great time! I love watching her love for nature. She helps me notice things about God’s creation that I easily take for granted and pass by. At the end of the trip we stopped at my favorite country church and grave yard. Grandma took the baby, I took my camera and played, while the kids ran, skipped, and jumped. Yes it might be a little weird to let your kids play among graves, but it is such a peaceful, and serene spot.
I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time Cari. Can’t wait to hear what the doctor thinks. I’ll be praying for peace in your house.
Oh, I see YOU in Bella’s sweet face. I used to think she looked exactly like Michael, but she is taking after you more and more. Beautiful. Hope you get some answers at Lili’s appointment. Love to you.
Bri