Back to The Drawing Board

Yesterday Lili was sick so the last 24 hours or so we have actually backtracked from where we started on her sleeping. sigh…Last night she spent a good chunk of the night either in my arms, in my bed, or on the floor beside us.

As much as I love to rock, cuddle and hold her. I am tired. Very very tired. If anything, our lapse in training confirmed to me that getting up hour upon hour, in the middle of the night is insane. We all need more sleep.

I put her in her own bed to nap today and the little monster within her came out in full force protesting. Poor thing, it must be confusing to her that I would rock her one day and not the other. It’s frustrating to have to start all over again. I really don’t like being “stuck” at home. I seem to be one who likes things scheduled, and for the most part that is true. But I also like the freedom to bend, and go with the flow. Obviously until we get this wild child under control, I am house bound. Trips to the libary, to see friends, to go shopping, car drives are all put on hold…again… hmmmm who’s scheduling who?

Before her being sick, we were developing a pretty good routine. The house was clean, laundry caught up, the kids loved on, dinner was made on time, and I was feeling a bit more normal, and less like a lunatic. Having a taste of what life CAN be like with three kids, is what motivates me to try to train her again. Oh and the extra time with my husband was pretty nice too!

Please pray for us as we begin round two. This mama isn’t as strong as she was the first time around. I need some encouragement!